life isn't playing fair for the past few days.
thanks for all who showed their concern in one way or another! :)

sometimes, i rly wonder if it's all worth it.. to go all out and harbouring a hope, then getting it smash into a thousand million pieces. so shattered that, the hope's dashed.

like today. like two hours ago. like now.
like the hope i had 1wk ago.

then there comes another point..
i dont understand what's the logic behind a guy's pride and oh-ego. i mean is it worth that much till.. they will go crazy once it's hurt by someone unintentionally? well, if it's to woo gals.. i think YOU should get a life and move on with it.

i srly dislike/despise guys who go... 'AWWWW.. my ego is hurt' then go.. complaining abt they did nothing and wth they did to deserve such and such treatment. come on, if you did nothing.. why the hell do you go around whining? -.- call yourself a guy. funny piece of shit.

then, also why do ppl like to HUH when they heard of what course i'm in?
is it such a pathetic course that ppl... will show you signs of sympathy or even come asking.. "you did badly for Os huh?" -.- it's weird. when the raw score for this course is above average too.

just when, i gained that interest in the course.. just when i thought it's not as bad as i thought initiately.. thanks bitchy aunties out there. you all somehow burst my tiny little bubble of hope. maybe, you all once had your bubble burst.. but you idiots out there, dont have to keep doing this to me right?

for once, i'm not ok anymore and cant pretend/going on like as if it's ok.
....... i'm super piss with it actually but what can i do? unless these innocent ppl change their thinking of how some course go abt. they definitely know nothing abt it, unless they had been thru it.

someone, enlighten ppl like this pls.
i srly think i need to take a long vacation to outerspace alr. i cant breathe properly in this tiny little world with such much going on..

you stupid idiot. tell me you're alright.
maybe you might come across this.
i'm here, i promise